impulse control

I consistently eat too much pizza. Especially ziti pizza from peace of
pizza, topped off with the giant chocolate chip cookies that are my

Even once I’m over my text messages, I continue to text people, often
random shit that could clearly have waited for a phone call or email.

I claim I’m going to do things differently, and I don’t. I’m going to
spend less money. I’m going to update my resume, hardcore look for a
car, and instead I go out with friends, or watch tv, or play the sims
into the wee hours of the morning.

I am simply fundamentally flawed it seems, largely due to what would
seem to be a lack of impulse control, but even that answer is too neat
and tidy. The fact that I don’t curse people out on a daily basis
requires self control. The fact that I’m not a total fatass despite my
affinity for fatty foods actually shows some self control, if not in
food choices or portion sizes, but in my other choices. I don’t do
drugs, or drink very much, I don’t randomly profess my love, I’m not a
total trainwreck- right? I go to work, and I’m on time, I haven’t yet
resorted to crime. But still..

The texting, why the texting? It’s almost like I overly control some
aspects of my life, and go completely crazy in others- in the really
stupid, random texting, Oreo binging ones. And I’m not sure how to fix
it- or if I even have to.


About boredgirl260

27 year old trying to figure things out as she goes.
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